This Friday I have my first job interview in over 10 years. Quite honestly, I cannot even believe it's happening. I haven't been looking all that long, I haven't applied to too many places and I've had a very defeatist attitude about it. My reality is that I have not worked outside my home for 11 years. I do not have a very professional look. My skills are rusty. This doesn't exactly sound like the makings of a good job candidate IMO. My friends kept telling me to be confident. That any company would be lucky to have me. That my life experience over the past 11 years is invaluable. I kind of thought they were blowing smoke up my ass! But maybe it worked. I started to see things a little differently.
And then a miracle happens. After only about 3 or 4 weeks of looking, company saw my resume online and actually wants to meet with me. It's an interesting business and it's in my ideal location. I have an interview on Friday. I'm absolutely terrified!
I haven't been in an office setting for so long and when I was it was so laid back. In fact, it was just me and one other person and most of the time she traveled so I was alone. I loved it. Quite frankly if that office hadn't been closed down I might even still be there. Eh, maybe not. I think I would have had to eventually branch out and discover myself. But that's besides the point. I'm talking about the here and the now. And the now is, that I have a job interview. On Friday. And I have 3 days left to prepare myself. I need clothes to hide visible tattoo's. I need to familiarize myself with the company. I need to find a portfolio in my room of crap and make a few copies of my resume to have on hand. I need to calm the fuck down and take everyone's advice and just go in and be myself.
It's my first interview and I don't expect it to equate to actually getting a job. I suppose stranger things have happened, but it seems unlikely. I guess that's probably the wrong attitude to have as well so I will have to adjust that mindset by Friday too.
I've discovered so many things I want in life over the past year... well discovered is probably the wrong word, it's more like realized or even let myself finally think about those things, and the first step in getting what I want is getting a job. Once I have it, then plans can be made and things can start happening. It's an exciting time, a scary time, and OMG a seriously amazing time in my life right now. The biggest thing that I have realized through all this self discovery is, it's not too late!