All Women Are Bad

This song has been stuck in my head for a few days now.  Ahh the Cramps.  What's not to love really.   RIP Lux.

Happy Holidays!

Happiest of holidays to all my lovely readers.  May your holiday be stress free and filled with good food, good company and all the things that make you happy.  <3

This Music Mayhem is Dedicated to L

When I was alone, on the street, nowhere to turn and full of despair, you were there.  You picked up the phone, brushed me off, dried my tears and listened with compassion.   I will never be able to thank you enough for being there when I needed it most.  Sending you much love....

I'm pulling through and it's because of you 

When I was stranded came your helping hand  

Lonely, hurt I had not known which way to turn 

'Til you said, "Try smiles, not tears, just laugh and learn" 

I'm pulling through and it's because of you 

You made me see how lovely life could be 

Lifted up my heart and made me count the cost 

To find I'd gained, not lost 

When I thought that hope was really gone 

You showed me I was wrong 

And you taught me how to carry on 

Thanks for the lift in time, and thanks for your song

I'm pulling through and it's because of you 

I'd do the same for you if your turn came 

Hope it never will for I've been through the mill 

I won't forget this debt, I'm pulling through 

When I thought that hope was really gone 

You showed me I was wrong 

And you taught me how to carry on 

Thanks for the lift in time, and thanks for your song 

I'm pulling through and it's because of you 

I'd do the same for you if your turn came 

Hope it never will for I've been through the mill 

I won't forget this debt, I'm pulling through

Ungrateful Heart

I go between anger (see previous post) and hurt.  And that mood changes at the drop of a hat.  But I'll be alright.  I know I will.  I always knew I would be OK, even when it felt like I'd never survive the heartbreak.  If I've learned nothing else about myself in the past few years, I've learned that you cannot keep me down for too long.

You may not be able to understand the words in Italian, but this is very clearly a song of pain.  It's beauty is heartbreaking.  It conveys a lot of what I feel to a core 'ngrato... ungrateful heart.

Maybe This is More Clear

If you read Dirty Laundry, no further explanation is needed.  I think this pretty much says it all.  And while it's not my usual genre of music, there is something so delicious about it.

And although there's pain in my chest

I still wish you the best with a...

Fuck you!

Three Strange Days

Welcome to another addition of Music Mayhem.   Around 1991ish, if I were a guessing gal, and I am, I went to Kent State University to see a band called School of Fish.  At the time they had a pretty popular college radio hit called Three Strange Days.  I always liked the song, might have had their cassette tape at one time or another, but haven't thought about them in many many years.   But as it so often happens, their song just popped into my head.  I wonder, when this happens is it because there is something in that song that relates to something I'm going through?   Is it just a memory?  Does it mean anything other than remembering a song I liked 20 years ago?

Hearing it again, I realize I still like it.  And maybe it does relate to my life somehow, right now, even abstractly.  

My mind was a blur
I did not know what to do
And I think I lost myself
When I lost my motivation

My mind is often a blur, about so many things.   My motivation goes out the door at the drop of a hat.  I could so easily go within myself and not come out.  But then, a song pops into my head and I have to find it, hear it.  And that leads to more and more and more.  I've said before that music (punk rock in particular) saved me.  And it continues to save me, every single day.

Music Mayhem

Yes, I think I will change the name of my Wednesday music posts from Way Out Wednesday to Music Mayhem.  It's way more me and doesn't confine me to one day if I want to post more music or post on any given day.   So let today be the start of Music Mayhem!

This song just popped into my head a few minutes ago and it was like a flash of lightning. It amazes me how that happens, how a song can just arrive on the scene and put everything you're feeling into a neat little 2 and a half minute bow.

Was it destiny
I don't know yet
Was it just by chance? Could this be Kismet?
Something in my consciousness told me you'd appear

Now I'm always touched by your presence dear

Wow, it's powerful.  And meaningful.  It is to me anyway.  It speaks to me and what is in my heart.  What's difficult about matters of the heart is whether you follow them or not. Is what the heart wants, the right thing?  I don't have that answer, if I did I probably wouldn't be such a train wreck.