My faithful 3 or 4 readers have probably been wondering why I haven't posted an update to the Lose 50 by 50 Challenge I gave to myself. Well I have nothing to report other than falling off the diet wagon. It sucks. It feels so good to lose and to weigh myself and see loss. And then to fall off so epically is just sad. Sad sad sad!!! Now granted, I had a few occasions to celebrate and they included going out and living it up. You're allowed to do that, even on a diet. You can have special occasions. You can cheat occasionally. But you can't just keep cheating. I feel like I've done that, in the "what's one more burger going to do?" kind of way. And then I beat myself up and feel like shit and then find something to eat. It's a viscous cycle.
I know now that I will not make it to 50 by 50. I only have a little over 2 months to go and it's just not possible. But I am going to try for 30 by 50! Giving up completely is not an option. After a visit to the doctor this week, I was told again that I should lose a few... well more than a few. So the importance of this for my health will be a driving factor, in addition to the cute clothes I want to fit into. Sadly, cute clothes is probably a bigger motivator, but that's neither here nor there. Whatever works right!? So it's time to jump back on the wagon... here we go!
